i have been in living a hop, skip + a jump from New York City for just over a month now (just over the river and across the williamsburg bridge in bklyn...). i have been asked countless times why i moved here. my most common response is "just a change". while this is of course true, there's at least a couple hundred reasons stashed within that one. then i was getting to know a very rad lady named bindu yesterday through her very awe inspiring blog... + she nailed it when she said that "sometimes you just have to pull a geographic". sometimes the change we seek is the change we need to make. i've been thinking about my whole saturn return that i wrote about here a couple of months back. my saturn return has been just about as text book as they come - an important time of endings + new beginnings. i ended a phase of life that felt very familiar to embark upon one that was untried + unsettling. i've read that the function of this time period is to promote growth. + unsatisfied frustration which a saturn return generally illuminates, is often the sufficient thrust that one needs to get moving forward. so why did i move across the country to a city where i only had one friend? because i needed to get moving. i felt held captive by some patterns + environments that were holding me back from what i knew was a fuller potential. + i knew that for myself i needed a big life change to break away from them. i've been heading in the direction of being a freelance photographer for ten years now. although there's been many adventures + small triumphs along the way... in some ways i feel like only now am i truly beginning to see the fruits of my labor. + it's magical + mysterious the way in which life happens. when i finally made the break to be 100% freelance i was suddenly graced with more work than i've ever had. i'm humbly honored to say that i have 15 weddings booked for this coming year + counting. for the first time ever people are finding me (rather than me finding them) + seeking me out + paying me money to do something that i love so much i would do it even if i weren't paid for it. there's a lot of travel on the horizon for this coming year which always makes the wander lust in me satiated. i'm finally making some very overdue investments + additions to my business... my period of turmoil is coming to an end + many goals are becoming crystal clear + realized. i certainly don't think that everyone needs to move across the country or the world to get out of a funk or a series of unbecoming patterns... but what i have taken from this journey is that there's great reward in facing fears. fears can stop us from doing so many things that we want to do + dream of doing. i think i'm looking forward to the coming year more than any year yet. turning 30 is suddenly looking very very attractive!